The man you thought you would spend the rest of your life with has just told you that after eight years together he has found someone else. What goes through your head when you are a 36-year-old woman bordering on 37?
Well my first reaction was like someone had walked over my grave. I had chills. Then I thought I am never going to have a child. It’s been two years that my boyfriend and I have been trying and nothing. Then I thought I am too old to start over again. I brawled my eyes out and it wasn’t a pretty cry, it was ugly. I didn’t have the heart to listen to him go on about how I was his best friend and how he might be experiencing a midlife crisis or the seven year itch and he wanted to experience this new thing that he felt for a girl he met two weeks. I listened as long as I could and left the room when I couldn’t hear any more.
I had a sleepless night and he slept well because it was finally off his chest. Despite being a sleepless night I had some clarity. He doesn’t want to be with me, his lose. He wants to be with someone else, so be it. I still loved him and what I want for him is to be happy and if that’s not with me, so be it. I have to move one. I have to start my life over again.
Nothing is that simple, though is it? We have a condo together and we have a two weeks trip planned together.
